Author: Wolf Moon Dawn

Mr. Squirrel

As I go about my normal day,

You restlessly scamper on the deck as if to say Hey!

My bird feeder is empty

You get a bit testy,

I say hold on you silly thing,

There are cheep cheeps who will sing.

You wait and wait impatiently,

Tail moving crazily.

Give me a sec,

My feeders a wreck!

Those raccoons last night had a feast

Causing a raucous, boy I should have policed!

Let me clean this mess

Or should I digress?

You watch me from a nearby tree

Knowing soon you will finally see

Seed and more seed

Not for you but you will still feed.

Take your time and share,

The birds are coming, be aware.

Your nervous chatter is the only thank you I request

Relax, enjoy your meal, see you later my skittish guest.

After the Rain Comes…

While glancing at The Weather Channel app on my phone, I was excited to see rain coming in the next couple of hours.  I had planted my gardens already a couple days ago, and yes, it is early, but I have not seen a freeze warning in sight so I figured I would take the risk, and go for it.  Gardening is one of those simple pleasures that I look forward to every year.  Yes, it is a lot of work, but the pros truly outweigh the cons.  Seeing how each plant adapts to the soil amidst the unpredictable winds, bugs, and weeds truly amazes me!  The last couple of years I have found my love had become a bit of a chore, as I rushed to get done so I can move onto other projects.  This year I said I am going to take my time, enjoy the process like I used to, and cherish the experience.

Most people I know absolutely HATE any and all forms of gardening.  They equate the activity to be on the same level as housework, rather than delight in the experience.  I do understand this reasoning to a certain degree.  When you work all day and come home, you really don’t want to take another minute to “work” at another job.  But I think that is the issue. If you perceive gardening to be just another work assignment, it WILL be just another job.  However, if you lose yourself in the moment, and savor the sights of the awaiting soil, as the patient seedlings move effortlessly in the wind, while the aromas of the earth and plants travel freely through the air, as the friendly bumblebee smiles as he observes what is to come…stop and delight in this minute before the moment passes you by.

Hey, I know, the next day your hands will be sore, your back will ache, and the endless mosquito bites will make you want to scream, but at least in the moment, you had time with nature, which is truly more precious than we will ever understand.

After the rain comes, I will be sure to check on the progress of my new additions, but until then, I will just be thankful that I have a beautiful garden to look forward to as Spring marches on.

The Light At the End of the Tunnel…

I know everyone has felt like me in some capacity or another where you just feel completely overwhelmed, and whatever you do, or should I say, try to do, you just don’t feel like you are moving ahead.  Well, I have felt this way throughout March and while glancing at my calendar, I guess I can include the beginning of April as well.

I cannot say I am not accomplishing anything, I actually am completing quite a bit; however, I am in that rut where I finish one task, and there are several more to conquer.  I am one of those Type A perfectionists that I have to have everything just so, or I feel crazy inside.  For as long as I can remember, I have always been an insomniac, but when I am in these non-stop modes, my sleep schedule is even more horribly bothered.  I am very restless, my mind is racing, and I am achy all over with the stress that is just pouring off of me.

Yes, I know this sounds dramatic and quite bleak; however, I have learned when I have days like this I have to just breathe.  When I say breathe, I don’t mean your regular everyday keeping you alive breathing. I am talking that deep down counting while breathing in and out breathing.  It truly does calm me to do this while I listen to a relaxing mix on Pandora.  I just tell myself soon I will begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel, even if it may seem like a far stretch away.  I know this too will pass and I just need to take each day for what it is and know that I will soon see brighter happy days ahead.

Decisions are Always Easy…After a Shower

Today I was faced with making some very difficult decisions.  Fortunately, the decisions were not life or death matters, just many things going on in my life both personally and professionally.  I get a bit panicky when everything seems to be happening at once and since I am at this strange crossroads in life, I am needing to decide how I should proceed.

It’s funny because when I need to confront my ever changing mind, I generally will stop in my tracks, and do what I’m sure many others do, maybe with different motivations, but hopefully with some positive end results.  The custom I adopt to magically dissolve away all of my problems and bring forth all of those wondrous decisions is none other than, did you guess…of course, a good ol’ fashioned shower!  It is miraculous how a shower, with its glorious, steaming presence seems to always, without hesitation, clear my doubt-filled head while allowing me the opportunity to figure out my next steps. My husband absolutely despises when I enter this enchanted downpour because as I exit this ceremonial ritual, my first words always seem to be “Sweetheart, did you remember to…”.  Oh boy, and how he hates that!  I just chuckle at this silly little way that undeniably always gets under his skin.

So, did that shower actually provide a judgment to the rolling thoughts swimming endlessly in my mind?  YES, as a matter of fact, I made quite a few decisions I am happy to report.  Now were they the right decisions? Heck, if I know!  I said I made decisions after my shower.  I didn’t say if they were right or if they were wrong!